The fever left briefly only to return with a vengeance. Because I'm not neutropenic, my doc isn't going to move forward with antibiotics yet as he doesn't wish me to build up any immunity to them now; later on, when I'll need them the most, I'll receive truckloads of them -- so I'm in a sort of watch and wait on my current fever. They've taken blood and urine samples to see if they can identify anything at play besides fever resulting from the chemo itself (bisulfan can cause it in a few patients) and swelling a delayed reaction to the end of radiation (which ended about 2 1/2 weeks ago.) So there we are.
I feel like crap now. Nausea (not sure if that's from the chemo or fever or both,) a shivery feeling, I feel exhausted, headache, nasty mouth, and it seems like the constipation might be returning since there's been no activity...."But the day is not done," says the optimist! I'm just so hot! (And then cold.) My temp is 101.5 right now so the cause is not a mystery.
I'll probably be back on later.
Thanks to those who've replied for your support! It really helps a LOT, because I feel a bit lonely and bored in here while Lorraine is at work.
About Me
- Sarah
- I'm a 43 year old, happily partnered lesbo. I was raised in downtown NYC in a commune, and the woman who raised me was the real Auntie Mame. I've lived also in Italy, India, and Ireland. By the time I was 10, I'd already lived with over 4,000 people. When I was 2 1/2, I drank oven cleaner. I didn't know I was gay until I was 26. My partner of over 9 years is one of the finest people I've ever known. She's from Brooklyn. I was treated for Stage IIIB Hodgkins Lymphoma, subtype Mixed Cellularity. First I did 6 months of ABVD chemo, and that secured a 14-month remission. My relapse was caught early and I went right into a stem cell transplant. The cancer had already returned when I had my 3-month post-transplant scans. There's no cure available to me at present, so I'm now entering a period of palliative care. We're hoping a Gemzar/Navelbine chemo combination will keep my cancer at bay for as long as 4 years -- that's the prayer. In the meantime, I am focused on savoring every moment....and maybe even losing a coupla pounds!
5 comments:
I've been following your blog for a while now, and I want to wish you the best of luck and care and healing during this time. I'm sending lots of positive thoughts--break, fever, break!
Delurking to say hi!
I read everyday and am constantly encouraged and amazed by your strength!
Stay strong - we are all rooting for you!
I'm sending lots and lots of love and healthy wishes, sweet Sarah. Keep on kicking Cancer's butt!
hay girly! sara/skylin heer! jus cheerin ya on tday! sory bout tthe fevr, sweety. BIG HUGS!!!! BIG YELLOW_Y SPONGEBOB HUGS!
and one ffor yor partnr too, as i no tthis is a tuff ttim for her too.
lisen close.......CAN YA HEER ME CHEERIN ALL THE WAY FRM CINCY???? ;)
Sarah, I am so sorry you are going through all of this! Always thinking of you although I haven't posted in a while.
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